Unbearable Pain: A Personal Battle With the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a dreary weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a sharp pain sprang behind my right eye. Then came quick stabs, like lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the discomfort subsided and then returned with increased force. Four times that day I left a teaching assistant with activities and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took ibuprofen, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared frequently that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-blown agony in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

This condition often start with severe discomfort around a single eye that lasts for three hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks typically start with abrupt, severe agony focused on one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal cycles; some patients have chronic attacks, defined by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What unites patients is the intensity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another found a significant percentage of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the figure fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, like many triggers, made things worse. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often interpreted her attacks as intoxicated behavior. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during attacks. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a national neurology center.

Still, the failure to organize daily activities around erratic pain took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described across history. “The first description of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a publication on the topic. They linked the ailment to an evil entity who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical medical records propose unusual remedies for what modern observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a distinct condition, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the first detailed description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing each day at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially classified by global headache committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel which delivers blood to the brain. Leading specialists in diagnosing the condition explain this.

In 1998, researchers released the findings of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The data, published in a major journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a physician looked up his complaints.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other common head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed patient history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But many first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate treatments.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She believes dentists still need much more awareness. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a reassuring advisor talked them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode passed.

National guidelines on treatment advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the attacks of well-known people.

But consultant neurologists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer treatment process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the cycle determines the treatment.” Short cycles with infrequent attacks are managed with acute treatment only. Longer or more intense periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes paired with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an injection into the side of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.

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Larry Torres
Larry Torres

Elara Vance is a software engineer and tech writer based in London, specializing in Python development and AI applications.